Last Thursday and Friday I spent my days at the Willow Creek Association’s Global Leadership Conference. It was an amazing two days of speakers and fellowship with the other members of COTHA’s leadership team.
Now the full disclosure…I headed into Friday fully saturated from Thursday and left Friday ready to resign from COTHA!
How could something so amazing create such a desire?
Well…frankly, I feel completely inadequate as a leader most days. Even at the age of 43 I often still feel like I’m playing grown-up. So this conference exposed my fears, inadequacies and shortcomings as a leader. The speakers described ideal leaders and let me tell ya…they weren’t talking about me.
I spent a lot of the weekend mulling over my discouragement but at the same time processing all that was said and discussed. Furthermore, I kept recalling something Darrel said as a means to encourage me…that perhaps in my complete helplessness I would be ripe to allow God to do the work instead of relying on my own strength.
Duh… I’ve been here before…I know this truth…
The Bible is very clear that there will be times we are utterly, completely unable to handle situations (despite those cute quotes that say otherwise)…
2 Corinthians 1:8-10
We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us,
So, here I am Lord…under great pressure, far beyond my ability to endure…I will rely on you only to guide, inspire and to give me courage!
Godspeed – DM+