Today was a school holiday and since so many of our church employees are parents of school age children we made the decision to close the office for the day so everyone could spend the day with their kids.
It was a gift indeed.
My children are older (17 and 14) and our family is in a bit of turmoil. Bad choices, peer pressure and asinine thinking on their part has both my husband and me in a ball of anxiety and fear.
You may be thinking “who wants to spend time with that?!?” And the resounding answer would be “ME!” You see, I love these kids more than life itself and I have spent my time in motherhood showering them with said love and praying against all odds that somehow we would avoid some of this mess.
But guess what…nope. Not even close. My rose colored glasses have been knocked off my face.
But in spite of the overwhelming fear and anxiety I choose to follow God. I choose to trust in his sovereignty and His promises. Honestly, I have no other choice.
As Christians, we have never been promised an easy life. Instead we have been promised salvation and a relationship with Jesus. That relationship is what I am clinging to desperately right now. And frankly, I’m right where God wants me…not scared and anxious but right at His feet in complete surrender. The things that happen in our lives are to sanctify us – to make us holy – and we can only be made holy if Christ lives in us. And He can only live in us if we are crucified with Christ.
It’s not lost on me that Galatians 2:20 is the current COTHA memory verse – God is good like that to me – giving me Bible verses that are apropos to the circumstances in my life.
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
So today when I woke, I sat at the feet of our Lord. I surrendered my life, the lives of my children, my fear, my anxiety, my everything. Then as I spent the day with my kids I absolutely insisted on enjoying every moment. Each time the fear and anxiety of tomorrow crept in I remembered Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Or simpler said – one day at a time…even one moment at a time. It’s all we’ve been given anyway.
And what a lovely day it was indeed. Thank you Lord.