I’ve missed y’all! It’s November 5…5 days since the #write31days challenge ended. Not only can I NOT believe that it’s already the 5th (where in the world do the days go) but I’m already missing the writing…so yeah, here I am again.
I’m reading a book titled Live, Love, Lead by Brian Houston. He’s the founder of a little ol’ church you might have heard of…Hillsong (lol) – yes, that amazing church from Australia. His story is inspiring and I’m learning a lot from him. HOWEVER, this morning…as I read about how wonderful his children are…all grown up and now running a Hillsong campus, I felt the envy and discontent rise in my heart.
Both of my children are wandering…one is off at college with church the furthest thing from his mind…the other here in high school putting up with his parents until he can leave and be on his own. Not the dreams I had for them when they were little. The temptation is real to wallow…to wonder what in the world we did wrong. Did we not try hard enough? Pray enough? Share/talk/express enough?
I will say this…the pain is real. The pain of watching your children make decisions that are contrary to what they’ve been taught is not for the faint of heart.
However, let me add this…how very self-centered and arrogant of me…am I really in control of another’s life??? I’m in no more control of their life than I am in yours. Sure, I have influence…but that is much different from control. And let’s be super honest…would I even really want to be in control of another? I can’t keep up with myself as it is.
Why is it that we feel envious when others have good fortune? Is there not enough good fortune to go around? And really, really…life could be so much worse…so let me be focused on the blessings and goodness in my life rather than the things I’m finding challenging.
I’ll leave you with this to ponder. I’m an aspiring yogi – love the practice even though I’m at the very start of my journey and I was looking at inspirational quotes this morning and came across this…
So true in both yoga and life – without the trials we’d never learn to be faithful and at the end of the day – that’s the end game.
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
So y’all with kids doing great – I truly am really, really happy for you – and I’m trying real hard not to be jealous – and instead to celebrate with you! For those with challenges, let’s have coffee and journey together…there is strength in numbers…I know I’m not alone. And for my children…in spite of it all, I love you to pieces.
xoxoxox – DM