Day 5 – Eye Roll Kind of Day

For reals, I can’t believe it’s only day 5 of October.  And a crummy day it’s been.

It started with an email from Google saying I’d better get my site moved over to HTTPS or be banned and lost forever in the WWW – of course, by changing to HTTPS all your links, etc will be changed so there was that stress. ????

* For the record, I’d procrastinated because I wasn’t sure how to do any of this – and I tend to procrastinate when I don’t know how to do something – the tech side of blogging kinda stresses me out.

But then there was an app for that and we’re back up and running.  But if you do happen upon a bad link I’d love to know about it. Oh yeah – Days 1 – Day 4 emails probably won’t link properly – so there’s that too ????.  If you’ve missed a day you can catch up here.

And then my expectations weren’t met at work ????

** of course, no one really knew the expectations…they were still in my head…safe and sound.

And then my beautiful firstborn turns 21 on Sunday.  I send him a text asking if I can come visit him…and I get an “Um, no, see you NEXT weekend mom.” ????

*** Sure, I get it’s his 21st but I was there in the beginning

And then I showed up at the wrong location for my mammogram…necessitating a mad rush down the Grand Parkway…except there’s never a mad rush down the Grand Parkway…unless it’s 2a. ????

**** and it was a mammogram – do I need to say any more about THAT?

And then finally I get some other test results back from my doctor with a cheery “everything looks good” in the notes but when I looked them over there was an abnormal result…all highlighted in yellow ????…and of course, as of this writing, I can’t get them to call me back.????

***** and you know I went to the google to diagnose myself.

But then, as I debated what to write today, Hootie and the Blowfish come on the ol‘ Spotify.  I haven’t heard them in a long time and I was overcome with pleasant nostalgia…the song took me back to 24 or so, newly married, starting out…all the feels.

And as my mind slowed and the eyes stopped rolling I was struck by a particular set of words…

Want you to hold my hand
(Hold my hand)
I’ll take you to a place
Where you can be
(Hold my hand)
Anything you wanna be because
I wanna love you the best that
The best that I can

In particular the “I wanna love you the best that…the best that I can”

And I just stopped. I don’t wanna be a crazy eye rolling lady – everything that has happened today is minutiae…I’m already shaking my head at myself for losing my cool. The beauty of loving God the best we can is that despite eye-rolling days he’s still totally got my back.

Until tomorrow,

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Donna Matthews is a blog writer at the DJRanch where she strives to remain authentic while not taking herself too seriously. She is also the creator of Slay The Chaos (www.slaythechaos.com), where she writes about productivity and organization. She is a member of The Writers Guild and Write Space in Houston and is currently writing her first book.