Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. — Psalm 34:5
My earliest childhood memory is one of my parents fighting. Not the quiet, teeth clenched, silent treatment, kind of fights but rather the dishes flying through the air kind of fights. Theirs was a tumultuous kind of bind that didn’t last more than a couple of years. My early childhood psyche was formed in this soup of fear. Fear that my parents would break up, fear of the fights, fear that either somehow it was my fault OR I couldn’t come up with a way to fix it. Maybe if I behaved well, there’d be peace.
And that’s where my story began…and when my FRENEMY was born.
We’ve all got that bitch inside that loves to start trouble. Mine knows that little girl full of fear – she knows how to push my vulnerable buttons. She’s totally a FRENEMY – that friendly that you’re not so sure is friendly. All the while just waiting for the moment to jab that knife in my back.
And here’s the other thing about her – like any good frenemy, you’ve got to keep her close so you can keep an eye on her. AND she won’t be ignored…that just causes more problems.
You can’t help that birds will fly over your head but you can stop them from building nests in your hair.
I love suspenseful thrilling movies. One of my all-time favorites is The Sixth Sense. That moment when he realizes he’s been dead the whole movie – my delightful gasp of surprise. Then the movie goes back over the scenes and we see all the events we missed and clues ignored.
There are parts of our story that we inherited and then those parts we created all on our own. But ALL stories start somewhere and build from one generation to another. KNOWING and OWNING our stories makes us powerful. We can silence that FRENEMY because we know where she is and how she operates. But what makes stories especially beautiful is when we share them…everyone loves a good story…AND knowing we’re not alone in our struggles.
It’s Five Minute Friday… five minutes of uninterrupted writing…no editing. No overthinking. Just write! The exercise of writing for just five minutes is to help build a writing discipline and I thank you for tagging along as I work on my writing craft! You can learn more about and join the FMF writing challenge at www.fiveminutefriday.com
Today’s word: STORY – link up here.