Day 21 – Defensive Catastrophizing

There’s something dangerous about nighttime – during the day we are busy with our to-dos, chores, and others…but when that sun starts to go down, the monkey mind winds up.


I had a dream the other night that I was fired from my job. I’m a junkie for dream interpretations and looked up some ideas:

A phase being ended in your life (in a way that’s out of your control)
Abandonment: Feeling that someone is failing to support an agreement with you
Fear of a particular change in your life, especially one that is out of your control

And the truth is, these interpretations are spot on.

I have a couple of areas of unknowns. And the more I think about the knowns that I have unknowns about – the more I realize there’s even more I don’t know. Follow? And then tonight I tried to talk to James about it all – fully knowing I was projecting, and future tripping, and playing what if games…all things I know better than to do…but I feel like my cup is a little bit full tonight. Talking about all the worst case scenarios makes me feel better somehow. I think it’s along the lines of rehearsing tragedy. I wrote about it last year around this time:


Rehearsing Tragedy: So sometimes, sometimes, I go there. I go to his [Evan’s] funeral. I go to a future without him. Even writing this makes me cry. Why do it? Because if I “practice”, it won’t be so bad if it happens – which is ludicrous we all know. Read More


This catastrophizing …practicing the worst case scenario… is simply a defense mechanism.

The worst part? I KNOW I’M DOING IT…AND…I KNOW BETTER.

There’s that crazy human thing again 🙄

“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. Matthew 6:34

Until tomorrow,

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Donna Matthews is a blog writer at the DJRanch where she strives to remain authentic while not taking herself too seriously. She is also the creator of Slay The Chaos (www.slaythechaos.com), where she writes about productivity and organization. She is a member of The Writers Guild and Write Space in Houston and is currently writing her first book.