Ever have one of those mornings? One kid storming out mad, another sulking inside, me pointing fingers and yelling (and let’s be honest, a few choice words were said). Finally, at 7:15a, one leaves for school in tears and I take the brooding other one on my way to the gym. Then, add the fact that we were all late and the other drivers this morning were driving in a particularly annoyingly manner.
I spent the early morning doing a Bible study on peace…Baahaahaa…way to go mom.
The second irony?
We haven’t had a morning like this in forever. In fact, things have been pretty chill at the DJ Ranch.
What the heck happened?
I can’t even tell you…I have no idea. I can give you reasons but I’m not sure the problem this morning was the real problem. We started fighting about A college application…not multiple applications mind you…just one. And it’s still not done. So then…my mind took off on all the other things he’s not doing…all related to growing up and being a productive member of society. So it’s not really just college but rather my fears for him as a young adult. All my fears from his education, relationships, employment and spiritually.
I took him back from God this morning.
But how do I balance being an involved, nurturing parent to allowing him to spread his wings and start taking responsibility for his own life? Where’s the parenting handbook when you most need it? Oh yeah…there isn’t one!!!!
Back to peace. The interesting thing in my study today was the discussion of Satan…in particular First Peter 5:8:
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
Let’s be clear…I’m not saying the devil made me act like a crazy woman this morning…but you can bet he was thrilled. He was thrilled that I was not peaceful…that my children left our safe haven we call home in a ball of nerves, tears, and distraction.
Seriously…way to go mom.
Thankfully, there is a solution…
Let us therefore draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16
Grace and peace is what I need now…from me to my children but more importantly for me from God. I can approach His throne boldly and tell him all about this morning. About THEIR bad behavior but also mine. I can surrender my children AGAIN and I can seek discernment on balancing love and logic. I can go to my father and THEN, only then, I can go back to peaceful motherhood.
Shalom – DM