No Freak-A-Zoid Here

So the other day we we’re all chitchatting around the office and I said something like “I let a lot of stuff go, but this DRIVES me CRAZY! And a smart aleck (not to be named here) said something like “REALLY, like what?” and it was funny and we all got a good laugh.

If you don’t know me really well, I can be a bit Type-A and a little OCD (some will argue the “bit” and “little” part).  This particular conversation involved someone not putting something back where they found it originally…you know “A place for everything and everything a place.” Seems simple enough to me!

But later that evening as I reflected on the conversation I was reminded of another truth “You judge yourself by your intentions while others judge you by your actions”.  Now seriously, I feel like I let a lot of stuff go.  In fact, it’s something that has been transformed in my mind…part of my sanctification. But apparently, my co-workers still see me as a little high strung :).  There was a time in my life this fact would have driven me crazy, made me sad and turned me into an insecure freak-a-zoid!

My gift today?  No freak-a-zoid, anxiety or fear!  The Lord sees my heart.  He knows me intimately and knows my intentions.  He is sanctifying me more and more each and every day.  I never have to try to explain to him what work is going on inside my head and heart.  I also know that as I continually seek him and his kingdom, I remain in his will and that’s the safest place of all to reside. I belong to Him.

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the
heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

Donna Matthews is a blog writer at the DJRanch where she strives to remain authentic while not taking herself too seriously. She is also the creator of Slay The Chaos (www.slaythechaos.com), where she writes about productivity and organization. She is a member of The Writers Guild and Write Space in Houston and is currently writing her first book.
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