This past week I read the following:
Jesus didn’t come to this earth so that you would be better behaved or to tweak your personality or to fine-tune your manners or smooth out your rough spots. Jesus didn’t even come to this earth to change you. The truth of the gospel is that Jesus came so that you could die. Idleman, Kyle (2012-04-24). Not a Fan: Teen Edition: What does it really mean to follow Jesus? (p. 165). Zonderkidz. Kindle Edition.
The chapter I was reading was dealing with the concept of dying to oneself…and frankly it was not a fun chapter to read because I realized once again how utterly and completely self-centered I am.
Didn’t you KNOW it’s all about me…it is my birthday month after all!
But seriously, if I am completely honest with myself, much of what I do in my walk is to make life better and easier for me.
- I pray because I realize there is power and comfort in prayer (makes me feel better).
- I do Bible study because I learn how to apply God’s word to my life (makes life more manageable for me)
- I go to church because I need the fellowship and connection (because I need)
Sooo…those things in of themselves are not bad and are even necessary to grow me as a disciple. But there needs to be a paradigm shift…I need to stop the focus on myself and turn my eyes to HIM. Pray to connect to Him…study to have Him transform my mind INTO what he needs…go to church and SERVE Him in whatever capacity is needed. I need to die in order to truly live.
But can I still please have my birthday month??? :)