Hmmm…how true is that! Many times (okay, mostly) I have an idea/perception about myself that doesn’t bear much reality. It’s not even intentional or malicious…however, it can be attributed to lack of awareness, to denial and to the refusal to admit something painful and unbecoming about myself. Besides, usually with acknowledgement comes the responsibility to do something about it…and that my friends is tough.
Time for a reality check.
Last year my Lenten discipline was to read Psalm 139 everyday…
my intention = read everyday / reality = most days
But back to Psalm 139 and intentions/actions
God knows me inside and out…my intentions, my actions (before they even happen), my very essence.
1 O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3 You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
5 You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.
He created me and I am fearfully and wonderfully made…good grief…what an awesome fact…what great comfort!
13 For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
But the critical part…to eventually matching my actions to my intentions…to stop living in ignorance, denial and fear…the path to becoming the person God created me to be…
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!