Question today from Beth Moore:
What is something God has graciously done in your life to show Himself “believable” to you?
That question is easy for me to answer in the big picture of my life. As I’ve shared before, reader’s digest version; I spent my teen years addicted to drugs and alcohol, in and out of rehab and headed down a path of destruction. I was graciously touched by God and my life took an amazing turn for the better.
But what about now? I’m in my mid-forties and life for the most part seems to be on cruise control. Not much drama…w-e-l-l…I do have teenagers myself now but as of late, they’ve been rather quiet (PTL). And as I write this, I’m sitting by a pool in Cancun, with the ocean in the background, cool breeze all about, celebrating 20 years of wedded bliss (ha ha, okay marriage). My life is great…I walk with God on a daily basis, I love my husband (and him me), I have great kids, I go to work, I pay my bills, I have great friends, I live in a beautiful state, city, home, yada, yada.
So again the question…slightly modified:
What is something God has graciously done in your life to show Himself “believable” to you TODAY?
I totally get lulled into complacency when it comes to my great life. I get caught up in petty matters. I start to gossip. I become judgmental. I lack urgency and intensity. When I first got sober, when things are tough in my marriage, when my kids went off the rails last fall, when money is just not there…those are the times I seek God intensely. Where I lay myself at his feet and give every ounce of my being to him.
But today….the beach beckoning…nowhere to be, my man at my side…the tendency will be to not give God much serious thought. Life is comfortable, good and fun.
So as I pondered the question…my answer today…
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”
Good morning Lord! Yes, the morning is so beautiful here! The white sands, blue beyond imagination water, palm trees in the gentle breeze. Just like your mercy Lord. It renews EVERY SINGLE MORNING…more beautiful than here or anywhere else in the world. No matter how much I screwed up yesterday…your mercy renews. And I don’t even have to wait until the morning, although that seems when I can understand it best. You are faithful in ways I cannot even begin to muster. Thank you Lord for this new day, new mercies…for being my Lord…this day to celebrate marriage…this day to celebrate LIFE.
We weren’t designed to live intensely everyday. We’d burn out for sure. But that’s where discipline kicks in…yes, I have my Bible with me…yes, I’m by the pool with my laptop writing this entry, and yes, I’m praying and surrendering my day and my life. It’s not always like this but today it is…thank God he is more faithful than me…Mercies new EVERY SINGLE DAY!
Amen – DM