What’s this month gonna look like? No idea…I’m usually the most proficient planner around but during the month of the October writing challenge I prefer to fly by the seat of my pants. I like to think that I’m allowing God to plan the days and words…I’m just showing up.
Brave • Authentic • Joy • Trust • Rising Strong • Love
They’re all buzz words lately – but what do they really mean? More importantly (always lol) how do they apply to me? These are some of the questions that I have been wrestling with over the past year or so. Not sure exactly when or how it started but I believe it was with a study of John. John is all about Love – loving God and loving others. I found the study challenging not for loving God but for loving others. As I’m sure you can surmise, I’m not talking about that easy romantic or maternal love – I’m talking about Agape – love as a verb – love in action.
I’ve struggled with intimacy my whole life. A lot of it has to do with my innate personality – very much the introvert I have a few close friends rather than a whole slew. People exhaust me. But it also has to do with the feeling/idea of “not good enough” that I have suffered from since a small child. If you “really” knew me, you’d be appalled. No idea of where the idea/belief came from but it still, even as an adult, rears its ugly head from time to time.
So what does “not good enough” and love have to do with each other? In order to really love others I would have to learn to love myself. I would have to learn my place in God’s eyes, learn self-compassion, and then learn grace and compassion for others.
My journey to Brave Authenticity HAD to begin with the lesson of accepting the fact that I am BELOVED. I am dearly loved…a much loved person. And the God of the universe KNEW me before I was formed. That I have been called into relationship with Him. That I was his precious child. Period. No ifs, ands, buts about it. Period.
And that my friends is my greatest source of strength and where this journey had to begin – I KNOW who I belong to and I believe his Word. His Love.
xoxox – DM